There was chemistry from the get-go, with Todd, and a big change from with Ron, who was pretty good but had turned sarcastic and frustrated and distant. Todd was a breath of fresh air: he had new ideas, and we tried a lot of new things together. Sure, there was some warning signs, but aren't there always some things need work in a relationship? This one had a lot of potential, and it was just a matter of learning from our mistakes and moving on.
And when things were good, they were really good. Maybe the best years. But there was always that doubt that crept in, usually in those dark February nights when nothing was going right. Or when we'd go to the spring dance and we'd always have to leave early, walking past the other happy couples, with Todd in the car driving home just frustrated and not talking. Not that it was all his fault, but weren't we supposed to work together?
"I don't know what more I can say. We've been over this a million times." Todd started to get more and more withdrawn, and the good days became more scarce. And yeah, maybe both of us stopped trying. That last year was miserable. I sort of let myself go a bit, and Todd just acted like he didn't care. When we finally broke up, it was a relief to both of us.
I told Todd, "you're a good guy, you should really take some time and find someone who will make you happy. Sorry it wasn't with me. All the best."
It was weird to see him immediately move in with Ed, who is a mess. I mean, just a mess. I guess he thought he could change him, make him better? I know that's what a lot of people were hoping. But yeah, they're a mess.
I've learned a lot, moving on from Todd. I got myself in shape, started working on improving things. I'm pretty content now. I wonder if he learned anything from me?
7:30 PM Pacific
Prediction: We're cordial to each other, but I can't help feeling a little smug when I see Todd with Ed.